#12 Making a list of things that you look forward to in life.

I know what it's like to feel hopeless, to think that the whole world would be better off without you. But you know what? That's not true. Your heart is beating and you are breathing and you are in this world for a reason. So grab a pen and a piece of paper and make a list of things you've always wanted to do in life, save it and look at it every couple of months and try to make these things come true.

Here's my list:

#1 Watch breakfast at Tiffany's for the 100th time. Know all the dialogues by heart.

#2 Choose the perfect wedding dress. Have a really crazy, unconventional wedding on the beach full of surprises and absurdities and polaroid pictures because that's the way I like it.

#3 Travel to Peru someday.

#4 Stay an atheist for the rest of my life.

#5 Go to lots of Renaissance exhibitions and fill my apartment with these beautiful paintings.

#6 And also with fairy lights.

#7 Collect books throughout my life so I can have my own private library when I'm older.

#8 Buy a typewriter.

#9 Write a book.

#10 Buy an apartment in Paris. 

#11 Plant roses in my garden.

#12 Keep looking forward to that first refreshing glass of ice cold water in summer.

#13 Make pancakes for my love on a rainy Sunday morning while listening to Sunday Morning by Maroon 5 / Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson.

#14 Learn a new language.

#15 Get a new tattoo.

#16 Overcome my depression.

#17 Go to festivals.

#18 Go to San Francisco.

#19 Dye my hair an absurd color.

#20 Make this my regular breakfast.

#21 Buy a polaroid camera. Take lots of pictures.

#22 Watch my scars heal.

#23 Lose a lot of weight just to know what it feels like to be superskinny. Then gain it all back.

#24 Try drugs at some point in my life. Not try them again.

#25 Buy a really old copy of a book I love.

#26 Teach my children how to bake cookies.

#27 Visit the clinic I've been to. Tell the patients that it gets better. 

#28 Buy a rabbit for my children and name it Snow White. (Yeah, I'm not making any compromises on that. :-))

#29 Paint something. Hang it on my wall.

#30 Visit the Wizarding World of Harry Potter in Orlando.

And always, always remember this: